I say I don’t feel things anymore,
But words still cut me to the core.
I feel so heavy, my throat gets tight,
I clench my fists with all my might.
My legs shake, and I pinch my skin,
To stop the tears from coming in.
My voice trembles, soft and weak,
Yet I pretend I’ve nothing to speak.
I still say I don’t feel love today,
But I care deeply in every single way.
I give my heart, and I try so hard,
Yet it feels like I’m always left scarred.
And, I start to think that I’m to blame,
For every goodbye, for every silence.
I swear I don’t feel things anymore,
But inside, there’s a fire, it starts to roar.
I want to shout, to let it all break free,
But I hold it in, afraid of what I'd be.
Then, I try to keep my anger away,
So I don’t hurt those I love each day.
And still, I say I don’t feel anymore,
But deep down, I know that I do.
Maybe too much?
